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"I don't deserve you"
The thought reverberates in my mind,
I've been frantically searching,
You I never thought I would find...

But I HAVE found you,
And my heart sings a joyous song.
While my mind whispers dark thoughts,
Saying it won't be for long.

I want to believe,
I want to keep hope in us, in you,
It's just so hard with my past,
After all I've been through.

I need this. I need you.
I'm just afraid my mind will get in the way,
As it has so many times before...
So I try to just say what I need to say..

So if I seem forward, or a little too blunt,
Please realize it's because I must.
It's the only way I can live anymore,
The only way I can rebuild trust.