Helpless

I'll try not to cry when I leave,
But Ill make no promises.
I try to keep it in, scared of scaring you.
Scared of the way my heart beats.

And when Im back in England all alone,
I'll try not to feel the cold around me.
The memories of us will keep me warm and
I'll try to laugh like we do together.

But i'll come home, i'll come back,
These thoughts keep me happy.
But then happiness is more deceptive than all the rest.

Quiet an tired,
I feel, I sense, I know,
Your strength,
But I fear your mind.

I see it's confusion, it's anger
And pain.
How I do yearn to ease that continual,
Ache in you!

But I am helpless, with only the power to listen.