My Ending.

The air is pelted out of my lungs,
a hand clamps over my mouth,
nails dig into my cheek.

I'm pulled back,
screams muffled,
heart pounding.

Like ice-cubes against my neck,
razor scrapes against my skin,
fucking stings!

A deep rumbling sound.
Laughter?
Can it really be laughter?

Pressed against a wall,
the stone so cold it aches,
and it scrapes at my skin.

I try to struggle,
it crushes me,
I'm useless.

My head is snapped back,
A black eye in a bed of ivory flesh,
the last thing I see.

Fire explodes along my neck,
I feel myself go limp,
Everything is spinning.

My body is empty and frozen,
...
Even before I hit the ground.

Love Pains

Breathing in
has started feeling like a sin
letting it out
leaves me filled with doubt

laying alone at night
eyes closed, no sight
i wonder if he knew
what i would do
for as long as my hearts in two

all the blood that will be spilled
he's the one who's billed
and i'm still here alone
with no one to call my own

i let it build up more and more
then when it gets to the point that i can not ignore
i resort to my sharp, thin, silver friend
from beginning to end
he makes a clean slice
then again twice

to my friends i'm myself again
but really i'm just waiting for it to begin
the pains of an open wound
ones that take to much time to consume

Only It's Different...

I look at you one last time
Hoping to feel something inside
Instead I'm empty with a broken heart
Only wishing we could go back to the start

To when it was just me and you
And being in love was all we knew
But then we changed
Our love for each other, rearranged

But still we kept clinging on
Refusing to believe our love was gone
Yet still we continued to fall apart
Leaving us both with a broken heart

And now you're back after so long
My biggest fear? Loving you again
I need you to go, I need you to leave
But still I want you next to me

I look for the answers in your eyes
All I can see is your past lies
I ask you to leave, our memories too strong
Strangely, You insist I've led you on

You leave my thoughts in disarray
And as you turn to walk away
I look at you for the very last time
Only this time it's different...


...I feel nothing inside